"Becoming older than ten was the biggest mistake of my life."
My first topic to try to handle is "nostalgia"...what is it?...
My theory is that nostalgia is something you reach for but just can't hold. A little pocket of happiness you'd like to keep forever but it fades as quickly as it came. People will tell me to "live in the now" but that's very difficult considering "now" is rarely as pleasant as yesterday seemed.... Music was better, movies were funner, TV shows were... (ok, maybe TV is better now)
One thing I have noticed...is that I often find myself at odds with my situation when I find a good era in my life I'm sad that the moments won't last and when I'm in the low points I'm sad that the good times seems so far away. Why is balance is so hard to find? It's why 90s music cheers me up and depresses me at the same time.... It's longing for a bygone era that gets further away with every song... Sure I can put in a CD of REM "Monster" or Oasis "Whats The Story Morning Glory" close my eyes and go back to 1995 for a little while...but I can't buy a ticket to go see those bands live in their time anymore....those moments have passed, the albums of the 90s are only echoes...
There is a flicker of hope though that holding on to those memories are what define you....
Well the good thing about writing your own history or wikipedia page is that you can purposely forget places, people or events.....so maybe that's the key.... Even though I rarely enjoy the present...maybe I will enjoy today in 10,15 years from now.... Probably not though...although I do miss 2005 for what it's worth.....
One things about finally getting to that age you always wanted to be is it's cost. You lose family members, friends and even pets that defined your world growing up....so finding an old toy or cassette can bring you back to those days where everything seemed perfect....when everything was Saturday Morning...
I can remember being a kid on my parents front steps watching the summer float by....watching the ocean blue reflect the summer skies..... 80s music playing in the back ground while I played with my 80s toys...having 80s adventures.... The 10 year old couldn't wait to grow up and be in the fun adventures he was having with his toys.....Well when he finally grew up he found out the 80s & 90s were gone... But the ideas and dreams flashing through his young mind are not...they are still waiting for the day when they can come true....
So I have to make sure I don't let him down...every time I do a silly sketch or try creating something fun.... I have to remember to do it for that little kid who couldn't wait to get his chance at playing as a grown up......
....as much as I'd rather just go back to sitting on those front steps again......
Eric (Feb 25/2014)
People have a tendency to look into the past and remember the fond memories and avoid the bad ones, but I think that is just human nature. Is the dryer incident considered a good or bad memory, it could explain a lot.
ReplyDeletethe dryer incident....was a common occurrence...I remember the day when I could no long fit inside....I was sadden by this...I used to bring my toys in there all the time....it was the end of an era....like my long wooden Toy Box...
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